It is definitely no secret that I have been overweight all my life. Even when i had lost 165 pounds, my fiance at the time, made fun of my weight. He didn’t last long in my life.
Lately however, all I can think about is losing weight and getting fit. I’ve tried to not count calories. I’ve tried to let it go so that it will happen as I eat properly. I’ve been getting rid of the bad food and adding the good nutrient dense foods. I’ve cut down my portion size. But other than 12 pounds that I lost from January 4 to the end of February, no success. My body is at war with my brain. They no longer communicate! They need to reconcile so that I can concentrate and do the correct thing! My body just wants to sleep and my brain never shuts down. I hate this feeling. Part of it to is that I have 3 compressed discs in my lower back and I need to alleviate the pain. To do that, I have to go see a spine specialist. I DO NOT LIKE DOCTORS! Anyway, I know that will help some.
When I feel like I’m not in control of my surroundings, I get very agitated and I guess a little depressed.
And yes before anyone asks, I’m taking my hormones! LOL! However, those do bad things to my body. My feet swell, my sugar gets out of whack and I gain weight. So do I want to take them, no! I haven’t found any way to replace the hormones with out taking medicine. Believe me, you want me to take them! Just ask my co-workers, my daughter and my husband! I went bat shit crazy about a month ago, after I stopped taking them for 3 months. It wasn’t fun!
I’m not exactly sure what my point was with this post other than I feel like my body and brain are fighting and I don’t know how to make them stop!!!!
Have a great day!